Praise by Sarah Cate

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All right, we're ready. We are re recording. We're re recording.

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We have already recorded this episode once before.

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Yeah. But the audio was trash. It was so

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bad. And this is how dedicated we are. Yeah, I'm sure this is great.

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Well, let's hope that it's great this time. It was absolutely magical.

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The first. It was so good we recorded it. And especially because

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when I first read this book, I really hated it. And you were nervous,

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and I was much kinder than you thought I'd be. And it was such

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an overwhelming joy. I think I just sat in my chair

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like a little evil villain. Cheshire cat,

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ear to ear grin. Because I was so thrilled at your response.

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Yeah. We'll see if I've. We'll try

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to capture the magic. Magic again. I think everything

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with us is just magical. That's true. Earlier today,

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when we both at the same time said, shoot,

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it was so glorious. It really was. And we

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only known each other for not even two years. Can you believe it?

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That actually is wild to me. Because sometimes it feels longer. Yeah.

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Where it's like. Well, no, obviously, like, I'm gonna tell Nicole. Yeah. Like,

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it's just like a default in my mind. Right. But then sometimes I'm like,

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I'm almost 40. Almost two years is like nothing. No,

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I know. But sometimes when you tell stories, I feel like I was there.

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That's because I'm such a good storyteller. Yeah. Yeah.

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It's not the relationship we've built. It's just your storytelling ability.

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It's just I'm so great. Yeah. Yeah.

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So the first time that you read this book, you hated this book. I don't

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like the age gap romance. I could never

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be with somebody. We talked about this.

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I mean, 10 years younger is the cutoff

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for you. It's the cutoff. Yeah. For me, 25. And that's when I

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first read this book. That is what I said. If she would have been 30

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and he was 50, I'd have no problems with it.

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Yeah. But now looking at this, after watching, like I said, I'm obsessed with

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this new show, Rivals, and there's an age gap romance,

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which I thought I would hate because she's 20 and he's like,

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mid-40s. Oh, that's a big age. Yeah.

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Oh, interesting. I'm obsessed with this show. Nobody's watched it.

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I can't talk about it with anybody. Carmen watched. Carmen's watching it

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now, but she has not gotten as far.

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And she's been doing homework while watching it. Oh,

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no. And I told her that she needs to. You need to sit and you

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need to watch this. Yeah. Because it's so, so good. And now

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I'm looking at praise through a whole new lens. Sure. It's one of those things

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where I don't know what I was before I watched

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this show. Oh, my God, I'm so obsessed with it. Rivals is

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based on a book series from the 80s,

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but this show is now.

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It's, you know, being made in 2024, so it's very modern,

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but still set in the 80s. Oh, it's set in the 80s. It's set

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in the 80s. Ohoh, my God. I was wondering

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why you kept bringing up the mustaches. Oh, these mustaches.

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I was thinking, for whatever reason, I was thinking it was like a period piece.

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No, like Victorian era. And you were like,

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mustache. And I was, like, imagining the mustaches with, like, a little curly

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edge. And you kept saying, like, they're so much more attractive with the mustache.

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And I'm like, those mustaches, like.

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No, this is 80s, 1980s in England.

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I think I was thinking, like, 1880s. No. Oh, my God.

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Okay, so the music is great. We get some Pat Benatar.

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I love Pat Benatar. Yes. And again, I've already watched it twice,

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and there's one clip from the very last episode that just like Bridgerton

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Season 3, Part 1, Episode 4.

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I've watched it a hundred times,

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and I. I'm already like, I want to watch Rivals again. So this just

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became a podcast about Rival. Okay, you know what?

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Scrap the book. We're just going to talk about that. Yeah, well,

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what book are we reading? We are reading Praise by Sarah Kate.

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This was one of our first swaps. So Nicole told me

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about a book, and I told her about a book, and this was the book

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that I told her about. Yeah, she told me about. Was called the Words,

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which we are going to do on another episode. And I,

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of course, liked both. Nicole didn't like this one?

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No. Tris, book helped you discover some things about yourself.

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It did, Yeah. I. When we get there, I'm gonna share.

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I don't want to forget about that. Nicole was discovering things left and right,

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and it took me a while to get there, but I did. Content warnings

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for this are age gap, bdsm,

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transphobia, and parental and family dispute.

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These trigger warnings are not comprehensive. As we,

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like, were going through the podcast, I realized how

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many more there should have been. Yeah, I would say trigger

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warnings that we would add to this would include degradation

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and probably domestic abuse or domestic violence.

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There are a couple of scenes that for me were

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not necessarily triggering, but. They were upsetting

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and they could be very triggering for some people. Our prologue

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for this book is seven years prior to our

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stories timeline and we meet Emerson and his friends

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who at this time are working for an entertainment company

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that they hate working for. Emerson is animatedly

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sharing his recent sexual escapades. And the first

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sentence of this book, when I told Nicole about this book. You came into my

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office and you were like, I need to read this to you. And you read

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it to me because you couldn't wait. Had to tell me.

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When they start like this, they start strong. It sets that

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tone. It does, and I appreciate it.

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The beginning of this book, the very first sentence is in

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quotations because it's Emerson speaking. It says,

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so I had a fistful of her hair in my hand and we were both

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in the moment when I looked her right in the eye and said, suck my

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like a good little girl. The next thing I knew, she reared back her fist

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and clocked me right in the face. So you

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know it's going to be a sexual book with that as the literally

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first sentence. And I was thinking about this too. I love how

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different he is in this scene. It's very clear that he's grown a

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bit in seven years by the time that we get to him because he would

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never tell a story like that. Oh no. As our Emerson

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that we learn him as in this book. No, that's a really good point.

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So after he tells the story, they're all kind of joking about it,

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him and his friends. And one of his friends, Garrett, has an idea.

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His idea is a service

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that matches people to other people with their same desired

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kink. And at first the group is kind of like,

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oh, Garrett, like, whatever. They're all kind of laughing about it.

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But then he encourages everyone to go around the table and share the

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things that they like. And everybody does.

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And thus we get the inception of the Salacious Players

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Club. This is the first book in a series by Sarah

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Kate. It is a standalone book, however,

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so it's all based in the same world, the Salacious Players Club. But you

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don't need to read the other books. There's no it doesn't end on a terrible

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cliffhanger. We're seven years later and we

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meet Charlie, AKA Charlotte.

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She is fighting with her ex boyfriend, Beau. Charlie broke

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up with him after 15 months together. And three

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months into them living together, he cheated on her. Charlie had to work

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during the final walkthrough of their apartment.

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And because she wasn't there, they sent the deposit

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back to the co signer of the apartment, who is Beau's

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dad, who he refers to as an asshole.

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So there are some hard feelings between him.

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Beau is just such a dick. You say he gets redeemed later and

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I disagree. I hate him. Don't mince words here,

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babes. I don't think that he is redeemed later. I think he

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gets a redemption arc. He gets a redemption arc. I am not forgiving

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him just because he gets better or whatever.

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I think the part that stood out to me about this particular

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chapter was the way that

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he makes Charlie feel. Yeah. Which again,

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it's not in the trigger warnings. But this scene is

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an example of one that probably should have because he's,

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you know, kind of berating her about how stupid she is for not being

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there. And yeah, calls her a fuck up.

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Yeah. She walks away from this where it's very clear

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that he's the one who fucked up. He's the idiot, the asshole.

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And she walks away from their interaction feeling like she

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is. Yeah. Do you want to give a physical description of Charlie?

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Yes. Charlie has brown hair and

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brown eyes. She is curvy but toned.

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I also generally, from the way that she dresses throughout the

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book, I get the sense that she's a little like alt.

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Like she wore. She wears combat boots. She wears a lot

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of black head to toe. There are some very strategic

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styling decisions that she makes later that feel very.

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I don't want to say up girl, but I think she does have a little

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bit of an alt edge to her. Yeah, I could definitely see that. And they

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do describe her outfits very clearly because she's really coming under her own.

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And we've said before too, Charlie is 20.

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She does not read as 20. No, not at all. He is definitely

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way more mature than we would have been. Oh, God, yeah.

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Absolutely. Charlie lives with her mom and her

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14 year old, Wise beyond her years,

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sister Sophie. And she works full time at the local skating rink.

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And she, like Beau, has a strained relationship with

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her father. Emerson is now a big deal.

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So this is seven years after the inception of the Salacious Players

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Club. And the Salacious Players Club is very popular. Our current

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timeline has us catching up with him a few weeks away from

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the opening of a new sex club. We learn he

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has been using his club's service to match him with

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a sub. But he is repeatedly

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disappointed and not finding a good fit. And they

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talk about this later, but this isn't like he's Been trying for a

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few months. He's been trying for years to find a good sub

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and he's gone through many, many. And as at this point in the book

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is like it's never gonna happen. I'm not gonna find anybody. And I'm just

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over it. Let's get the physical description of Emerson. Okay.

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Emerson, he is tall.

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He has a strong jaw, a sandy beard,

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but dark hair. And his hair has some white around the temples.

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He has very broad shoulders. So just a big chiseled.

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He's yummy. Yeah. We compared him to Jeffrey Dean Morgan

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and I think that is so, so fitting. I can't picture anybody else.

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Yeah. And Jeffrey Dean Morgan is older than Emerson

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is in this book and he's still such a good

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daddy. Such a daddy. Charlie arrives at Emerson's mansion.

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I originally had put house here and then cross it out to put mansion.

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She goes to collect her deposit check

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and Emerson's friend and one of his

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kind of co founders, Maggie answers the door

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and thinks that Charlie is another sub here for

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her interview. And Emerson assumes the same. So she's

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waiting in his office and he walks in and right away

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starts like directing her. Like he opens

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with like, you should always be kneeling when I come in the room.

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And she's not really understanding what's going on.

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He tells her to get on her knees and

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when she asks why, he says, you want your

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money, don't you? I love how

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this scene played out because I think this is kind of what you were

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alluding to earlier is a lot of these types of books

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describe these scenes.

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Like we talked about 50 shades of gray. Everything that

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the sub is doing for the dom is like

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she wants to please the dom. It never gets

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written from the subs perspective. And the feelings

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of ease and peace that they have

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in their sub role and that they enjoy it.

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And it's always from his perspective. And she's never done this before,

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but she still feels here that she wants to get on her knees

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and she wants to please him. But she's battling with herself.

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Oh yeah. Because she's like, am I going to be humiliated and get on my

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knees? But once she's there, she doesn't feel. Feel humiliated.

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Yeah. He continues to play out the

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scene at which point he and Charlie sort of

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figure out the mistake that they've made.

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And this scene is very,

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very, very sexy. The author describes

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in such, I don't even know, like anticipation,

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like this detail that she provides. She describes the

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way that he moves his voice, the way he smells

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and Just the way that he takes up space with

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Charlie. And Charlie admits to herself that she's turned on

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by him. Although he has a very domineering

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personality, she writes him with so much warmth.

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And for Emerson, Charlie is nothing

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like any of the other subs that have been sent to him. No. The ones

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who have come in before feel like they're playing a part. They are

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trying to be submissive. They're using a baby voice.

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They're trying to almost seem. He calls her a brat.

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Like they're trying to seem bratty and submissive and

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be punished. Yes. And this just comes natural to

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her, which is very different. And exactly what he's been looking

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for. Seems like, yeah, absolutely. Even though she's never done this,

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she's. A natural for sure. But again, I think it just

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goes back to, she's a natural because she enjoys it.

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Yes. That's so important. We didn't talk about this last time, but it

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reminded me of this movie called the Secretary.

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I've never. Which is. It's from the early 2000s, I think, or late 90s,

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maybe. But it. James Spader. Okay. And Maggie Gyllenhaal.

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Oh, my God. I love Maggie Gyllenhaal. You would love this movie. I completely

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forgot about it. But my old roommate used to love it because I

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was, like, a receptionist, and he would be like, oh, you're the dirty secretary.

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But he's dominant, and she does

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not realize that she's submissive. And then she kind of starts

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making mistakes, and he punishes her. Oh, my God.

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It at first just feels very sexy, like you can tell their sexual tension.

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And then he is kind of purposely making mistakes, and he

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tells her to bend over the desk. Stop. And he punishes

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her. What? Yes. I have such

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a lady boner for Maggie Gyllenhaal. I'm not kidding you.

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I. And she is so sexy. Even James Spader,

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who's one of my sisters. What are those called

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now? The. Hear me out. James Spader currently

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is one of my sisters. Hear me out. Oh, and he's younger in

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this movie. Sure. It is a sexy movie.

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We should probably watch it and review it. Like,

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react to it. I'm gonna write it down, but it's very much

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that. Like, he's that type of personality where he's just looking for this to fit

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into his life, not he's not looking

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for the role play. That's a really good way to describe it. Yeah.

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So Emerson writes her a check for the deposit,

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and initially, we'll learn kind of

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as we get into this, Charlie is very curious. Naturally, she's very curious.

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She asks a lot of questions. She obviously knows

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something is up. Yes. Right. So she initially kind of is

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pressing him on who he thought she was,

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and then she kind of starts to change tactics. She gets

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this idea that she is going to

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blackmail him. He's like, you know, don't mention this.

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You talk to my son. And she's like, well, I might talk to him.

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And the price for her silence that

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she gives him is a whopping $250.

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It's so adorable because even in her head, when he's like,

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you mean like $250? And she's

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like, oh my God, I asked for too much. He's not going to give it

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to me. What am I doing? And she's freaking out.

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So then when he gives her the check, she just books it. Yeah, she needs

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to run with the signs. Yes. And like runs. Throws herself

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into her car for what. She thinks is 250,

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which is so much at 20. Oh yeah,

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she was there for a thousand dollar deposit. Yes. This is big money for her.

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And she gets in her car and she realizes that he actually

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wrote her a check for five grand, which she's.

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Like, I need to deposit this now. Before he realizes it, I need to get

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this money in my bank account. I just have a note here that says,

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daddy. Yeah, Daddy.

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Charlie uses her recent windfall to take her mom and Sophie

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out for dinner. They always do a Tuesday night dinner, but she's treating.

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This time they have tacos and margaritas. Not Sophie,

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her sister, because her sister's only 14, but her and her mom.

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While at dinner, she is processing how the events of

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that afternoon made her feel. And again,

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she's very, very curious. So that night,

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she's at home, she is reliving their encounter,

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and she pulls in a coal and she decides,

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google him. Google him. Who doesn't?

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I've never googled anyone. You, how you made it this far

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without getting killed, I don't know. And I'm gonna tell you,

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I participated in some real risky shit. I Googled all the time.

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She learns more about him and a little

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bit more about his club and finds herself on a

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dominatrix blog site which

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includes firsthand narratives of the

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SPC services as well as provides detailed

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descriptions of various kinks. Her night ends on

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her having one of those just out of reach dreams where

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what she wants and what is just out of reach is Emerson's

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dick. Literally like her reaching for his

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pics. And can't get them. Yeah. In these early chapters,

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I think it's really important to note that Charlie has very

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clearly has a distorted misunderstanding of the

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praise kink. She initially thinks that

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it makes her submissive in, like, a negative way,

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that it will make her feel dehumanized and

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it'll sort of make her smaller.

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And she doesn't realize at this point that the praise kink is actually

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meant for the opposite, which is to, like, build, which I think isn't easy.

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Well, and her self esteem is so low, too,

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that she, I don't think can even wrap her head around somebody

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praising her or how that would make her feel, because all

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she's used to is feeling beat down and abused and.

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But she also, when she's reading about it, does one of those things where she's

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like, oh, yeah, I like that. And then, like, immediately, like, slams her computer shut

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and is like, no, I don't. And so she's really battling

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it out internally with herself. The next day, Emerson shows

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up at Charlie's job. He is there to

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offer her a job as his secretary,

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his real secretary, not one of his special secretary secretary secretary,

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as Nicole calls it. And her curiosity

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gets the best of her, and she pushes him on the previous

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day's events, and she asks him

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how she did, to which he tells her she

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was exceptional and, quote, looked exquisite

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on her knees, which, against her will, she likes

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a lot. One of the things that both

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of us really liked about this is the specific language

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that he uses here. It's not overly sexualized

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or fetishized, and. It feels very deliberate, like he

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is giving her more than a compliment.

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It's not just saying she's hot. Absolutely. He's already starting

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to build up her. Confidence here and pique her interest,

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too. Like saying she looks exquisite on her knees.

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That would pique my. Yes. Yeah. Jeffrey Dean Morgan,

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please say that to my face. Yeah. He expands on the job.

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No kneeling. Just bring him coffee, lunch, do paperwork,

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good pay, good benefits. And before Charlie accepts,

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she asks Emerson if his club is LGBTQIA plus inclusive.

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And he says, very. And she accepts his offer

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on the spot. The next day, while shopping for a new outfit for

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her new job queen, she runs into her

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ex at the mall. And he immediately, because he's

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a dick, gets mad at her for not getting his half of the deposit check,

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which. Is, you could have been there the day you could. You have no job.

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You would have been there the day of the walkthrough. I can't wrap

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my mind. I can. I Just can't believe

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that he is this big of a dick. I know. And he's there with another

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woman. Yeah. At the mall. Like, you've been broken up for five seconds.

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And I just. He's. I would have fucked his

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dad just to spite him. Queen. Yes. We're a fucking

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queen. No, I know. I tell this to Melissa all the time when guys,

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like, ghost her or don't want to date her. I'm like,

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girl, go his dad. We are at that age.

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You can sleep with him or you can sleep with his daddy.

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Oh, my God. What? Make him your stepson.

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If he doesn't want to date you destroy his life.

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Oh, my God. Just the world would be burning.

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Yeah.

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Your face right now is. Oh, man.

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We're about it. I do have some very big thoughts about

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this book. Yeah. Emerson is desperate to reconcile

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his relationship with his son, which is

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his reasoning behind why he

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offered Charlie the job. In his mind.

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Yeah. He's decided that it's an end with his

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son. He doesn't realize how. Yeah. He does not know what he did. They don't

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talk. So he thinks, oh, they broke up. They're young,

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not a big deal. They probably still talk. Yeah, exactly. Not the case.

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Yeah. Yeah. He's thinking his son's gonna drop by and he's gonna get

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the opportunity to see him. But he

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is also simultaneously thinking to

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himself, he would never start a relationship with her.

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Yeah. And he's already. Until she shows up on the first day.

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And he's immediately obsessed with her. Yeah.

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She dressed in like a see through top, black lace bra,

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pencil skirt, the tights with the garter and the line

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down the back. She is playing the secretary,

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he calls her. Too perfect to ignore and

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too forbidden to be mine. That's how this chapter ends.

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He takes her to the site of their new club that first day

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where she meets their contractor. And when

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he clearly interprets new secretary as new

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special secretary, she likes it. Yep.

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After her interaction with the contractor,

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Emerson takes Charlie aside and tells her not to

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flirt with the men or the women and not to get involved because

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she is not ready. And Charlie tells him off.

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Yeah. She's pissed. She's like, you do not know what I'm ready for. I can

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make my own fucking decisions. I want to flirt with Drake, the contractor.

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I'm going to fucking do it. Yeah. And he's trying to

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kind of like control the situation by

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kind of having his hand on the. On the small of her back and directing

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her where to go and introducing her. And now she's mad, so she's not having

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any of it. Yeah, like I'm a big strong girl and I don't need you

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to show me around this club. I'm going to do it my damn self.

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And decides that she's going to find

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the office where she needs to drop off her new

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hire paperwork and gets lost.

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She finds herself in the area of the club with the private

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rooms. So it's kind of a hallway with

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rooms that line the hallway. And each of the rooms has a window.

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And then there are different themes in the room. Yeah.

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Has kind of a different kink or devices

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for different types of kinks. And so she

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wanders into a room with a throne in it. And Emery's

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business partner Garrett followed her into

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the room and at his behest,

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she sits in the throne in the room. And he

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very mildly plays through a scene with her

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where he gets down on his knees in front of her while

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she's sitting in the throne and is sort of gently,

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very playfully kind of running his hand up her

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leg. And Emerson walks in.

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Charlie is so uncomfortable with Emerson walking in that she decides that

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she's going to quit and he won't let her. And instead

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she falls easily back into the submissive and him

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being the dominant again, kind of shepherding her around.

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On the way home, they discuss Bo and

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Charlie shares how mean Beau

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is to her. And the names make Emerson

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angry. And he is angrily correcting her,

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telling her she is not a loser or a fuck up or an idiot.

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And then he apologizes for his behavior from

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earlier in the day. I like this next part.

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Because Charlie takes Sophie to a local comic

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book store. Yes. And there was

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a new anime comic book that had come out that morning

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and had sold out that morning. And Charlie

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uses her feminine wiles to convince

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the man working there to get

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her a copy of the new book from the back.

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And he does. And this scene is.

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We're seeing, seeing confidence take over. She's covering

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up. She's trying to hide herself and feels kind of embarrassed with

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how she's dressed. But then she realizes that

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maybe she can use this to her advantage. And I love, I love

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watching her progression of confidence in this book. Yeah, it's written so,

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so well. Yep, it works. She gets the comic book two weeks in

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on the job, and Charlie has a full blown crush on Emerson.

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After discussing the upcoming grand opening, she. She offers.

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I love this part so much. She offers to read

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his poem and he accepts.

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She tells him he'll have true all consuming

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intoxicating life changing, earth shattering love and

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gets into her feelings about it. But instead of laughing at

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her or belittling her, he validates her and

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asks her if that's what she wants. And she says yes,

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she won't settle for anything less. And he says, good. And this

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was the scene where I figured out. I figured myself out

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because I was. I. When I tell you the way that I

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loved this scene, I was so engrossed, I was so

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just. I couldn't tear my eyes away. I was so emotionally

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charged by this scene. And I was thinking back on all of the other romantic

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scenes that we've gone through that I was just like, I hate this and I

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hate them and it's just gross. And I realized that

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the thing that I like when it comes to romance

467
00:28:49,781 --> 00:28:53,773
is when it is romance that is cultivated and developed slowly

468
00:28:53,829 --> 00:28:57,405
over time. Yeah. These. This buildup of these two

469
00:28:57,485 --> 00:29:01,821
becoming physical with each other is. It's weeks,

470
00:29:01,933 --> 00:29:05,437
months, many. This is not like a five days enemy

471
00:29:05,461 --> 00:29:09,229
to lover where they hate each other and then five days later they're having sex.

472
00:29:09,317 --> 00:29:12,345
Yes. Up at his door with a jersey on.

473
00:29:13,405 --> 00:29:17,293
They're really establishing a foundation. And I put it together.

474
00:29:17,349 --> 00:29:20,621
It clicked for me because in Acotar, that was the reason that I loved Rhys

475
00:29:20,653 --> 00:29:24,425
and Feyre so much, is because it's these two people

476
00:29:24,765 --> 00:29:28,453
finding solace in one another, developing a friendship.

477
00:29:28,589 --> 00:29:31,645
And then that friendship turns into something else. He's so respectful

478
00:29:31,685 --> 00:29:35,297
too. Like when she has to read his palm. A lot of men

479
00:29:35,421 --> 00:29:39,593
kind of make fun of women who are into things like astrology,

480
00:29:39,689 --> 00:29:43,081
palm reading. Reading your birth chart. Yes. They kind of make fun of it.

481
00:29:43,113 --> 00:29:46,489
And he's so respectful about it. And really they.

482
00:29:46,617 --> 00:29:50,217
He's using the opportunity to bond with her. Yeah. He doesn't know anything about it.

483
00:29:50,321 --> 00:29:53,137
Yeah. He's asking. This is her moment now to teach.

484
00:29:53,241 --> 00:29:56,593
Yeah. And he is a willing pupil.

485
00:29:56,649 --> 00:30:00,953
It is, it is a good scene. Yeah. Emerson tells Charlie

486
00:30:01,049 --> 00:30:04,823
that he's going to bring her as his date to the opening.

487
00:30:05,009 --> 00:30:08,387
She agrees. They have a flirty

488
00:30:08,451 --> 00:30:12,011
moment that turns into just a whisper of a

489
00:30:12,043 --> 00:30:14,931
kiss, which is interrupted by a phone call.

490
00:30:15,123 --> 00:30:18,107
And Charlie comes back down to earth,

491
00:30:18,171 --> 00:30:21,075
realizes that she kissed her boss and like freaks out.

492
00:30:21,235 --> 00:30:24,395
He stops her from leaving. And again,

493
00:30:24,515 --> 00:30:28,331
just so good. They agree mutually

494
00:30:28,403 --> 00:30:32,099
that a physical relationship is a bad idea. And while he's

495
00:30:32,147 --> 00:30:35,251
kind of spiraling about that, he reassures

496
00:30:35,323 --> 00:30:39,059
her that it has nothing to do with not wanting her and tells her

497
00:30:39,107 --> 00:30:42,699
what a good girl she is. And it just puts her at

498
00:30:42,747 --> 00:30:46,267
ease. She likes hearing that there's a couple. Of scenes

499
00:30:46,331 --> 00:30:50,187
in this book where I can't tell who I'm more excited

500
00:30:50,251 --> 00:30:53,483
for. For him,

501
00:30:53,579 --> 00:30:56,899
that he gets to dominate her and she listens

502
00:30:56,947 --> 00:31:00,911
to him, or for her, that she gets

503
00:31:00,943 --> 00:31:04,995
to be told that she's a good girl. I can't tell

504
00:31:05,455 --> 00:31:08,383
which one is more exciting for me. That's why you love this book. It is

505
00:31:08,399 --> 00:31:12,159
why I love this book. Emerson is now falling for Charlie,

506
00:31:12,207 --> 00:31:16,135
but he's still fighting it in hopes of the reconciliation

507
00:31:16,175 --> 00:31:19,487
with his son Beau. He calls Beau and

508
00:31:19,551 --> 00:31:22,623
just such a stupid decision, but he decides that he's gonna

509
00:31:22,639 --> 00:31:26,225
leave him a message. It was a stupid message, but it was a very dad

510
00:31:26,265 --> 00:31:29,185
thing to do. It really was. He's like, hey,

511
00:31:29,265 --> 00:31:33,057
son, I'm sure you know Charlie's been working for me. She's really

512
00:31:33,121 --> 00:31:35,761
great. We talk about you all the time. You should come by and see us

513
00:31:35,793 --> 00:31:39,705
sometime. Like, it's a very casual message.

514
00:31:39,785 --> 00:31:43,045
And later on it backfires on him. Yeah.

515
00:31:43,385 --> 00:31:47,577
That same day, Charlie's car battery dies and

516
00:31:47,721 --> 00:31:51,657
she walks to the deli to get Emerson's

517
00:31:51,681 --> 00:31:55,783
lunch because she's again, responsible for his lunch. Miles away. Three miles away.

518
00:31:55,879 --> 00:31:58,195
Yeah. In heels. Oh, my God.

519
00:31:58,535 --> 00:32:01,035
And like a good dom,

520
00:32:01,335 --> 00:32:05,007
Emerson is upset that she didn't tell him that

521
00:32:05,071 --> 00:32:09,695
she had to walk three miles in heels. And he takes

522
00:32:09,735 --> 00:32:13,607
care of Carly by having her remove her heels so that he can

523
00:32:13,631 --> 00:32:17,175
rub her feet, which are freezing and sore from

524
00:32:17,215 --> 00:32:21,037
walking in the cold. While rubbing her feet,

525
00:32:21,231 --> 00:32:24,977
they share another sexually charged moment and

526
00:32:25,041 --> 00:32:28,525
are once again interrupted by Charlie's phone when Beau

527
00:32:28,985 --> 00:32:32,929
gets his dad's message and calls her to chew her

528
00:32:32,977 --> 00:32:36,081
out versus calling his dad, the man

529
00:32:36,113 --> 00:32:40,057
who hired her to chew him out. But the artistry

530
00:32:40,121 --> 00:32:44,817
of this scene, the way that it is written, is so,

531
00:32:45,001 --> 00:32:48,051
so beautiful. It's is such a sexy

532
00:32:48,083 --> 00:32:52,067
scene. Oh, my God, it's so sexy. It's so.

533
00:32:52,211 --> 00:32:56,363
This author is like. She's breaking down the way that he,

534
00:32:56,499 --> 00:32:58,963
like, methodically, like,

535
00:32:59,019 --> 00:33:02,099
unclips her stockings and drapes

536
00:33:02,147 --> 00:33:05,515
them over a chair and the clasps. And it just.

537
00:33:05,555 --> 00:33:08,915
The whole thing is. Never mind the part that I didn't

538
00:33:08,955 --> 00:33:12,275
include, which is where she is making, like,

539
00:33:12,315 --> 00:33:15,803
yes sounds to him. Yeah, she's. Yes. She's, like, moaning.

540
00:33:15,899 --> 00:33:19,141
Moaning about him, which. Who wouldn't. Yeah.

541
00:33:19,173 --> 00:33:22,861
When somebody's rubbing your feet and it feels. But he

542
00:33:22,893 --> 00:33:26,197
gets hard and she's, like, rubbing her other foot. Oh,

543
00:33:26,221 --> 00:33:29,813
my God. So sexy. And it's. The whole thing

544
00:33:29,869 --> 00:33:32,745
is just. Oh, God, it's such a good scene.

545
00:33:33,645 --> 00:33:37,101
It's the night of the opening, and Emerson is

546
00:33:37,173 --> 00:33:40,205
sort of escorting her around, and she's

547
00:33:40,245 --> 00:33:43,781
feeling very out of place, very uncomfortable. She feels like everybody's staring at her.

548
00:33:43,893 --> 00:33:47,405
They can all tell she's a fraud. She's got all these weird feelings about herself.

549
00:33:47,565 --> 00:33:51,285
And she decides that she needs a little breaky break. And so

550
00:33:51,445 --> 00:33:54,661
she decides that she is going to

551
00:33:54,733 --> 00:33:58,693
sneak away to visit the hall of rooms that has the throne

552
00:33:58,749 --> 00:34:02,325
room in it. Yeah. And again, I can

553
00:34:02,365 --> 00:34:05,645
just really relate to Charlie's

554
00:34:05,685 --> 00:34:09,389
curiosity. And the way that this whole scene

555
00:34:09,437 --> 00:34:13,457
is written, again, I can't underscore, is just so sexy.

556
00:34:13,601 --> 00:34:17,241
The hallway is now dark. Yeah. The windows are

557
00:34:17,273 --> 00:34:20,497
lined with curtains. So if somebody is in

558
00:34:20,521 --> 00:34:23,649
a room playing out a scene, they can close the curtains

559
00:34:23,697 --> 00:34:27,313
if they don't want. But if voyeurism is their thing, they can

560
00:34:27,489 --> 00:34:30,833
allow other people to watch. And there are people kind

561
00:34:30,849 --> 00:34:34,241
of scattered the hallway, couples watching

562
00:34:34,353 --> 00:34:37,875
what's happening in the rooms. And they're like, you know,

563
00:34:37,915 --> 00:34:41,291
like, whispering to each other. And Charlie's like, I wonder what

564
00:34:41,323 --> 00:34:44,827
they're saying. And we're all curious, and it's all just very

565
00:34:44,891 --> 00:34:48,347
sexy. And she gets to the throne room,

566
00:34:48,531 --> 00:34:52,267
and in the throne room, a woman is sitting in

567
00:34:52,451 --> 00:34:56,307
the throne. And in front of her is another woman,

568
00:34:56,411 --> 00:35:00,267
kneeling, eating her out. And then there's

569
00:35:00,291 --> 00:35:03,989
a third person in the room that sort of touching and kind of

570
00:35:04,037 --> 00:35:08,013
teasing the woman who's sitting in the throne. And we get to

571
00:35:08,069 --> 00:35:11,821
see two scenes play out here because there's

572
00:35:11,853 --> 00:35:15,317
a scene in the room and then Emerson

573
00:35:15,421 --> 00:35:19,385
finds Charlie watching and

574
00:35:20,125 --> 00:35:23,605
is whispering sassy sweet. Nothings in her

575
00:35:23,645 --> 00:35:27,105
ear because she's turned on. And you can tell.

576
00:35:27,645 --> 00:35:30,981
Yes, the man in the room with

577
00:35:31,013 --> 00:35:34,845
the ladies has moved to behind the kneeling woman

578
00:35:34,925 --> 00:35:37,465
and is getting ready to fuck her from behind.

579
00:35:37,925 --> 00:35:41,301
Meanwhile, Emerson is hard with Charlie grinding against

580
00:35:41,373 --> 00:35:44,653
him in the shadows in the hallway, watching them, which.

581
00:35:44,749 --> 00:35:47,945
That in and of itself feels just so illicit and just.

582
00:35:48,725 --> 00:35:52,037
Yes. Emerson takes Charlie's

583
00:35:52,061 --> 00:35:55,869
hand and puts it between her legs and tells her to touch herself.

584
00:35:55,957 --> 00:35:59,041
And Charlie begins to masturbate at Emerson's

585
00:35:59,073 --> 00:36:02,673
urging the whole time. So his hand is

586
00:36:02,729 --> 00:36:05,881
over her hand, but he's not touching her. I love that.

587
00:36:05,993 --> 00:36:09,681
And he's, like, praising her. He's telling her how perfect she is

588
00:36:09,713 --> 00:36:12,953
and how beautiful she is. And he's sort of gently kissing

589
00:36:13,009 --> 00:36:17,097
her. And the people in the room are

590
00:36:17,281 --> 00:36:21,601
going hard. They're all. They're all orgasming.

591
00:36:21,793 --> 00:36:23,725
And when Charlie comes,

592
00:36:24,105 --> 00:36:28,145
Emerson removes his hand and licks his fingers

593
00:36:28,225 --> 00:36:31,673
clean. It's so

594
00:36:31,729 --> 00:36:34,897
sexy, I think. And it's funny too. Because she, like, doesn't realize that he

595
00:36:34,921 --> 00:36:37,765
wants her yet. And I'm like, how?

596
00:36:38,185 --> 00:36:41,537
How do you not realize he's too good for her?

597
00:36:41,601 --> 00:36:44,921
Yeah, it's definitely a testament to what Bo did to her and how low her

598
00:36:44,953 --> 00:36:48,225
self esteem is. He just licked your juices. Oh,

599
00:36:48,265 --> 00:36:51,473
my God. Yeah, he did. And you're not sure?

600
00:36:51,569 --> 00:36:55,725
Yeah, 100%. That scene is from 107 to 109.

601
00:36:56,185 --> 00:36:59,545
That night, when dropping her off, Emerson kisses her goodnight, saying,

602
00:36:59,665 --> 00:37:03,345
just for tonight. And without realizing it, Charlie calls

603
00:37:03,385 --> 00:37:06,801
him sir and is pleased by his response.

604
00:37:06,993 --> 00:37:10,193
Riding her high from their night together, Charlie decides that she's going

605
00:37:10,209 --> 00:37:14,001
to get what she wants from Emerson and starts to do research on how

606
00:37:14,033 --> 00:37:17,495
to be a subject. On Monday, Charlie greets

607
00:37:17,535 --> 00:37:20,767
Emerson kneeling for him, and he gives it

608
00:37:20,791 --> 00:37:24,255
to her, agreeing that he will teach her to be his sub as long as

609
00:37:24,295 --> 00:37:28,391
some days she's just Charlie. And there's sort of this

610
00:37:28,583 --> 00:37:31,791
predetermined. It's not sexual. Yeah.

611
00:37:31,863 --> 00:37:36,039
She asks, can I be done without sex? And he says, yes. She's printed

612
00:37:36,087 --> 00:37:40,555
like the good sub that she is. She's printed a list of limits

613
00:37:40,905 --> 00:37:45,177
and has rated them all based on. She doesn't like Impact play,

614
00:37:45,361 --> 00:37:48,273
but she's got a bunch of other fives if they. Yeah, there's a lot of

615
00:37:48,289 --> 00:37:52,705
things that she'll. She'll try a lot. Yeah. But she intentionally

616
00:37:52,825 --> 00:37:56,249
does not rate anything that's related to sexual penetration.

617
00:37:56,417 --> 00:38:00,273
So this scene, initially, as it's playing

618
00:38:00,329 --> 00:38:04,009
out, Charlie is feeling like, what?

619
00:38:04,057 --> 00:38:07,537
What have I done? Because he says, okay, yeah, I'll train

620
00:38:07,561 --> 00:38:10,317
you. They agree on the terms. And then he's like, all right, go back to

621
00:38:10,341 --> 00:38:14,077
work. And Charlie is like, what am I doing this for?

622
00:38:14,181 --> 00:38:17,905
Right. I thought that we were going to do this, like, sexy thing,

623
00:38:18,285 --> 00:38:21,621
and we're not. You're just having me sit at my desk.

624
00:38:21,693 --> 00:38:25,665
And she's kind of starting to feel like this is maybe not what she wanted.

625
00:38:26,045 --> 00:38:29,373
Until midway through the day, he has her join

626
00:38:29,429 --> 00:38:33,705
him for a video call where she kneels

627
00:38:34,205 --> 00:38:37,663
at his side and he strokes her

628
00:38:37,719 --> 00:38:41,951
hair while he's in this meeting. And Charlie

629
00:38:42,143 --> 00:38:45,719
really kind of falls into the.

630
00:38:45,847 --> 00:38:49,995
The appeal of this, that she enjoys

631
00:38:50,335 --> 00:38:54,075
the euphoria of getting the attention.

632
00:38:54,735 --> 00:38:58,303
It's not attention that's being given haphazardly.

633
00:38:58,439 --> 00:39:01,831
It's thoughtful and poignant and very intentional when

634
00:39:01,863 --> 00:39:05,099
he's giving her the attention that he does. And she

635
00:39:05,267 --> 00:39:08,579
really, really likes that. At the end of the scene,

636
00:39:08,707 --> 00:39:12,267
she says that she wants to be claimed by

637
00:39:12,291 --> 00:39:15,379
Emerson. And this is where I was probably nicer

638
00:39:15,427 --> 00:39:19,227
last time because I really don't like that. I would

639
00:39:19,291 --> 00:39:22,255
not like to be doing this.

640
00:39:22,635 --> 00:39:26,427
Even if he's rubbing my head and I'm. It wouldn't do anything for

641
00:39:26,451 --> 00:39:29,963
me. I would not be pronounced by this or this

642
00:39:29,979 --> 00:39:32,867
is not the type of anything I'd want.

643
00:39:32,971 --> 00:39:36,339
Yeah, I will absolutely agree.

644
00:39:36,427 --> 00:39:40,451
I don't have the patience for that. I have the attention span of

645
00:39:40,563 --> 00:39:44,603
an actual goldfish. You could not get me to sit still and

646
00:39:44,659 --> 00:39:48,643
silent. Right. Nicole and I just. When we're talking, sometimes we

647
00:39:48,659 --> 00:39:51,683
don't even wait for the other one to finish talking. No, we start the other

648
00:39:51,739 --> 00:39:55,579
story. I couldn't imagine being that silent

649
00:39:55,627 --> 00:39:59,393
for that long. But it is a real turn on for Emerson

650
00:39:59,449 --> 00:40:02,961
because that night he masturbates to thoughts of Charlie. Yeah.

651
00:40:03,073 --> 00:40:06,337
Yeah, good. Because she's gotten off now.

652
00:40:06,521 --> 00:40:09,417
He. And thought about him sexually, had a dream about him, and now we finally

653
00:40:09,441 --> 00:40:11,685
get to see his release. Yeah, it's.

654
00:40:12,265 --> 00:40:16,225
It's sexy. Yeah, it's so sexy. They continue

655
00:40:16,265 --> 00:40:19,841
the Dom sub practice on and off. And on an off

656
00:40:19,913 --> 00:40:23,945
day, he takes Charlie back to the club and

657
00:40:24,025 --> 00:40:28,057
he meets one of Emerson's old special secretaries

658
00:40:28,241 --> 00:40:30,445
and is immediately jealous.

659
00:40:30,905 --> 00:40:35,445
He tells her to introduce herself and

660
00:40:35,745 --> 00:40:39,365
she's pissed. Yeah. Like a brat. She's like,

661
00:40:39,705 --> 00:40:43,285
hi. Like, yeah. Full blown attitude.

662
00:40:44,105 --> 00:40:46,485
Emerson is very displeased by this.

663
00:40:46,785 --> 00:40:50,467
Emerson goes off to give this old

664
00:40:50,531 --> 00:40:54,339
secretary a tour and Charlie decides that she's going to get into some trouble.

665
00:40:54,507 --> 00:40:58,619
She allows Drake, the contractor to

666
00:40:58,667 --> 00:41:02,427
dare her into wearing a U shaped vibrator to

667
00:41:02,451 --> 00:41:06,115
see how discreetly it could be worn and is

668
00:41:06,195 --> 00:41:09,215
caught by Emerson when Drake turns it on.

669
00:41:09,675 --> 00:41:13,267
And yep, Charlie describes making a noise that porn stars

670
00:41:13,291 --> 00:41:17,299
would be embarrassed about. She is not wearing this discreetly at all.

671
00:41:17,467 --> 00:41:21,043
This whole scene she was like, I got it all. Like Emerson filled her

672
00:41:21,059 --> 00:41:24,947
up too much or something. Literally. She had her confidence up here.

673
00:41:25,091 --> 00:41:27,587
And there's. This is the first time you're wearing one of those and you think

674
00:41:27,611 --> 00:41:30,891
you're just going to be fine. You're going to let somebody besides Emerson.

675
00:41:31,003 --> 00:41:33,855
Oh, so the remote, Are you kidding me?

676
00:41:34,995 --> 00:41:38,427
It backfires on her. Emerson retrieved the

677
00:41:38,451 --> 00:41:42,051
remote from Drake, who is absolutely a shitster. He knew exactly what he was

678
00:41:42,083 --> 00:41:45,779
doing. Yeah. And he commands Charlie to come with him. And again,

679
00:41:45,867 --> 00:41:49,347
like, he is not expressing any kind of emotion.

680
00:41:49,371 --> 00:41:53,147
He not expressing anger. He's literally just like, charlie, come with me.

681
00:41:53,251 --> 00:41:57,535
And Charlie's like, oh my God. I. Yeah, like she knows that she's in trouble.

682
00:41:57,955 --> 00:42:01,851
He takes her to a restaurant, like out

683
00:42:01,883 --> 00:42:05,771
for lunch. And the whole time he's sitting

684
00:42:05,803 --> 00:42:09,475
there with the vibrator remote on the table. It's still

685
00:42:09,515 --> 00:42:13,269
inside of her. He's not touching the remote. They're having this very

686
00:42:13,317 --> 00:42:16,973
candid conversation, and there's this absolute. It's just hanging

687
00:42:17,029 --> 00:42:20,821
over. Yes. Is he going to touch it? Is she going to make

688
00:42:20,853 --> 00:42:24,277
that noise in this restaurant again? Yes.

689
00:42:24,341 --> 00:42:27,413
Oh, my God. I was stressed out. This would not do it for me.

690
00:42:27,509 --> 00:42:30,065
Yeah, no, I hear you like me,

691
00:42:31,005 --> 00:42:34,785
which is interesting because you are. I'll do the public sex thing.

692
00:42:35,285 --> 00:42:38,725
You're not doing it at the table at lunch. You're doing it in the bathroom

693
00:42:38,805 --> 00:42:41,755
at lunch. Yeah, no, I hear you.

694
00:42:42,135 --> 00:42:44,807
I really like this scene, though, because he.

695
00:42:44,951 --> 00:42:48,615
Again, the way that he communicates with her. He is very candid,

696
00:42:48,735 --> 00:42:52,799
and he says to her, do you know why I asked

697
00:42:52,847 --> 00:42:55,791
you to introduce yourself to my old secretary?

698
00:42:55,943 --> 00:42:59,599
It's so that she would know that you are special

699
00:42:59,647 --> 00:43:03,079
to me. And Charlie admits that she was

700
00:43:03,127 --> 00:43:06,343
jealous. Yeah, she's feeling like a dick. Yeah, she.

701
00:43:06,439 --> 00:43:09,043
She does feel like a dick. And it's. I think it's one of those things

702
00:43:09,059 --> 00:43:11,731
where it's like you wanted to be claimed by him. You had your opportunity,

703
00:43:11,843 --> 00:43:15,235
and when she. Had her moment, she fumbled.

704
00:43:15,355 --> 00:43:18,771
She did a little bit. Yeah. Which is okay, babe. We all make mistakes.

705
00:43:18,843 --> 00:43:22,163
Yeah. He re. He reassures her that the other woman

706
00:43:22,219 --> 00:43:25,291
is in the past. And even when Charlie asks

707
00:43:25,403 --> 00:43:28,867
such a silly, silly question as to whether he slept with

708
00:43:28,891 --> 00:43:32,203
the woman today, he, again, he doesn't belittle her.

709
00:43:32,259 --> 00:43:35,541
He's not like, come on, why are you asking such a stupid question? He just.

710
00:43:35,613 --> 00:43:38,989
Again, he just reassures her that he didn't. And he totally,

711
00:43:39,037 --> 00:43:42,765
completely validates her feelings. And we talked about this last time where it's like,

712
00:43:42,845 --> 00:43:46,333
both Beau and Emerson are very

713
00:43:46,389 --> 00:43:50,085
dominating men. And it's so interesting how one

714
00:43:50,245 --> 00:43:53,629
makes her feel so small and the other makes her feel.

715
00:43:53,717 --> 00:43:57,229
They both are domineering there. Isn't that such a good point?

716
00:43:57,277 --> 00:44:00,541
I did not think of that. Yeah, but because of the way that

717
00:44:00,573 --> 00:44:04,245
he approaches it and because of the love and the care and just how

718
00:44:04,285 --> 00:44:07,509
thoughtful he is, it builds her up and it makes her feel.

719
00:44:07,597 --> 00:44:11,173
It makes her feel empowered, not small. And I

720
00:44:11,189 --> 00:44:14,685
just. Oh, God, he's such a good dom. I love him so much. Could you

721
00:44:14,725 --> 00:44:18,157
be in a dom sub relationship like this with.

722
00:44:18,261 --> 00:44:21,945
With Emerson? Could you do this? I don't know.

723
00:44:22,325 --> 00:44:25,533
I don't think I could. I would be. I think at

724
00:44:25,549 --> 00:44:27,581
one point I make a little note in here where I'm like, I would be

725
00:44:27,613 --> 00:44:31,811
such a good Sub for Emerson. But I wouldn't be able to sit quietly

726
00:44:31,883 --> 00:44:35,323
and hold my tongue just because somebody told me to. I think if

727
00:44:35,339 --> 00:44:38,747
it was very exclusive to, like, a scene, like, if we were actually

728
00:44:38,811 --> 00:44:42,779
playing out that specific thing, I could. You could do the role play aspect.

729
00:44:42,827 --> 00:44:45,923
You couldn't do the actual lifestyle. I couldn't do the actual lifestyle.

730
00:44:46,019 --> 00:44:49,819
No. I just. I would be cheating even for Jeffrey Dean Morgan. I am

731
00:44:49,867 --> 00:44:53,467
sorry. Just, I have some big opinions and I just don't keep them

732
00:44:53,491 --> 00:44:56,955
to myself. But I think, again, I really like that about their relationship because

733
00:44:57,035 --> 00:45:00,273
he says when they're talking about it, I will do this

734
00:45:00,289 --> 00:45:03,993
with you. As long as sometimes you're just Charlie. Yeah. And Charlie does stand up

735
00:45:04,009 --> 00:45:07,945
for herself. She's not a rug here. He's not walking all over her. I just

736
00:45:08,025 --> 00:45:11,641
really like to be called. A good girl, which is

737
00:45:11,673 --> 00:45:14,881
so funny because you and I are definitely both outlets in our relationships.

738
00:45:14,993 --> 00:45:19,125
Yeah. So the submissive does not come easily.

739
00:45:20,505 --> 00:45:23,809
I like to be manhandled a little bit. Same. Yeah.

740
00:45:23,897 --> 00:45:27,261
I think it depends on the dynamic of the relationship. I think that if

741
00:45:27,393 --> 00:45:31,021
the person that I'm in a partnership with is just as a person,

742
00:45:31,133 --> 00:45:35,373
a little bit more of a domineering personality, I, by nature,

743
00:45:35,509 --> 00:45:38,877
want to dominate them sexually. That it's just

744
00:45:38,901 --> 00:45:42,197
like the default. And it's the opposite, where it's like. If they

745
00:45:42,221 --> 00:45:45,385
are more of a, like, quiet,

746
00:45:46,005 --> 00:45:49,917
laid back kind of person, then. You want to see the dominating

747
00:45:49,981 --> 00:45:53,005
from them. I want them to dominate. I get that. I want them. I'm doing

748
00:45:53,045 --> 00:45:55,897
all the work all the rest of the time. Once I get into the bedroom

749
00:45:55,921 --> 00:45:58,825
with you, I want you to do the. I want you to be the boss

750
00:45:58,865 --> 00:46:01,561
of this. I don't want to have to think about it. Okay, you would,

751
00:46:01,633 --> 00:46:05,165
because I said I read Tess's book, Pucking Wild

752
00:46:05,825 --> 00:46:09,645
Emily Wraith, and that's how Ryan Langley is.

753
00:46:10,105 --> 00:46:13,521
Well, I call him Puppy. He's this sweet puppy dog listening

754
00:46:13,553 --> 00:46:16,525
to her. In real life, he's 22.

755
00:46:16,905 --> 00:46:20,413
And then in the bedroom, though, it is a little. He's dominating.

756
00:46:20,609 --> 00:46:24,165
What? I did not expect that at all. I know you. So she

757
00:46:24,205 --> 00:46:27,605
is such a dominant personality. Yeah. So in the real

758
00:46:27,645 --> 00:46:31,157
world, that's how they behave. But in the bedroom, he's the one

759
00:46:31,221 --> 00:46:34,665
tying her up, telling her to put her hands on the headboard.

760
00:46:35,005 --> 00:46:38,245
Oh, my God. You would actually probably really

761
00:46:38,285 --> 00:46:41,837
like that book. Oh, my. I'm adding it to my TBR right now. I wasn't

762
00:46:41,901 --> 00:46:44,941
that interested in him, to be honest. No, I wasn't that interested in

763
00:46:44,973 --> 00:46:48,161
her. I like her a lot in the book, but I wasn't like,

764
00:46:48,333 --> 00:46:51,793
oh, I want to know Tess's story. But now I do. You would?

765
00:46:51,849 --> 00:46:54,721
Yeah. I think you'd really, really appreciate that. Dynamic, then.

766
00:46:54,873 --> 00:46:58,485
Wow. Oh, my God, you're so worldly hot. I know.

767
00:46:59,585 --> 00:47:03,545
So they're at lunch. They've gone through the conversation. He's validated

768
00:47:03,585 --> 00:47:06,365
her feelings, and now it's his turn.

769
00:47:06,785 --> 00:47:11,233
And he is now turning on the vibration

770
00:47:11,369 --> 00:47:14,675
of the vibrator that's inside of her while they are

771
00:47:14,715 --> 00:47:19,535
talking about Charlie flirting with Drake.

772
00:47:20,035 --> 00:47:23,779
And the more she denies it, the more intensity that

773
00:47:23,907 --> 00:47:27,683
Emerson uses to punish her. By turning the vibrator up

774
00:47:27,859 --> 00:47:30,619
again while they're still in public. They're still at lunch.

775
00:47:30,787 --> 00:47:33,971
And every time he's just on the cusp of having

776
00:47:34,003 --> 00:47:38,011
an orgasm, he turns it off and he. I'm gonna get violent.

777
00:47:38,203 --> 00:47:41,015
I am going. I. You love the edging.

778
00:47:41,375 --> 00:47:44,315
I'm. I'm leaving.

779
00:47:44,615 --> 00:47:48,879
I'm taking that remote. I'm attacking him. I cannot.

780
00:47:48,967 --> 00:47:50,755
I don't do that. Yeah,

781
00:47:52,135 --> 00:47:55,519
I'm getting a visceral response. It makes me

782
00:47:55,567 --> 00:47:58,903
so bad just thinking about it. Don't. It's like, oh,

783
00:47:58,919 --> 00:48:01,951
my gosh. When you're, like, young, and you're trying to figure out how orgasms work,

784
00:48:01,983 --> 00:48:04,647
and the guy is like, what if I try this? And I'm like, I told

785
00:48:04,671 --> 00:48:08,219
you to stay where you were. Yeah. Now I'm pissed.

786
00:48:08,267 --> 00:48:10,963
Yeah, it's like that. It's like those videos all over the Internet where women are

787
00:48:10,979 --> 00:48:14,579
like, when I tell you just like that, it doesn't mean harder.

788
00:48:14,707 --> 00:48:18,575
Literally, do what you are doing. Do nothing different.

789
00:48:19,315 --> 00:48:23,043
And so the fact that she. He can tell that she's almost there and then

790
00:48:23,219 --> 00:48:27,435
snatches it away. Yeah. I am violent.

791
00:48:27,595 --> 00:48:30,931
I would not be okay with it if she

792
00:48:31,083 --> 00:48:34,613
didn't get to come. Yeah. But she does get to come.

793
00:48:34,789 --> 00:48:38,205
He runs through this punishment until she orgasms, and then

794
00:48:38,245 --> 00:48:42,381
they agree that Charlie will be a good girl. And she acknowledges

795
00:48:42,453 --> 00:48:45,305
that he would never do that to her. So,

796
00:48:46,565 --> 00:48:49,749
so good. I love that. After the vibrator punishment,

797
00:48:49,797 --> 00:48:53,085
Emerson insists on Charlie filling out the sex portion

798
00:48:53,165 --> 00:48:56,693
of her limits because he realizes that he enacted that

799
00:48:56,749 --> 00:49:00,093
punishment without her consent. Really? Yeah.

800
00:49:00,229 --> 00:49:03,773
And Charlie gets all riled up here and

801
00:49:03,789 --> 00:49:05,981
is like, if I'm gonna fill this out, why don't you fill it out?

802
00:49:06,013 --> 00:49:09,301
And she's like. She grabs a pencil and a paper

803
00:49:09,373 --> 00:49:12,805
and is like, I'm gonna. Why don't you write

804
00:49:12,845 --> 00:49:16,469
a list of your limits? And she's just kind of like, I think,

805
00:49:16,637 --> 00:49:20,269
spiraling A little bit about the trajectory of their relationship.

806
00:49:20,437 --> 00:49:24,385
And this is the only time in this entire book that Emerson loses his cool.

807
00:49:25,245 --> 00:49:29,457
Like, basically gets up in her space and is like, there is

808
00:49:29,561 --> 00:49:32,785
not a thing on that list that I don't want to do to you.

809
00:49:32,865 --> 00:49:35,913
And it's this part. Yes. Sexy.

810
00:49:35,969 --> 00:49:39,849
I was like, yes, after that last. Scene that I was so

811
00:49:39,937 --> 00:49:43,233
fired up about this scene just hearing the things that

812
00:49:43,249 --> 00:49:46,753
a man wants to do to me or

813
00:49:46,929 --> 00:49:50,521
imagining all the things that he wants to do to me. And he's

814
00:49:50,633 --> 00:49:54,005
like, you said he's lost his cool. So now she. And now I've pushed him.

815
00:49:54,335 --> 00:49:58,175
Oh, you're cool. Oh, my God.

816
00:49:58,295 --> 00:50:01,315
That was the part that you love. It really is.

817
00:50:01,655 --> 00:50:05,711
It really is. You are such an enigma.

818
00:50:05,783 --> 00:50:09,911
I love you. So Emerson

819
00:50:09,983 --> 00:50:13,631
storms off, goes to his home gym to work off some aggression.

820
00:50:13,823 --> 00:50:17,743
Charlie interrupts him and they're kind of talking it out and

821
00:50:17,759 --> 00:50:21,087
it's starting to get a little heated. And he says, like,

822
00:50:21,111 --> 00:50:24,487
is there any point in trying to stop this from happening? And who should show

823
00:50:24,511 --> 00:50:28,171
up at his front door? None. Others than Beau. She's fuck

824
00:50:28,203 --> 00:50:31,755
this guy. Beau has shown up to pick up his check. And Emerson,

825
00:50:31,875 --> 00:50:35,179
trying to do the right thing, encourages him to take Charlie out to dinner,

826
00:50:35,267 --> 00:50:39,195
even though he's very clearly jealous of Beau.

827
00:50:39,315 --> 00:50:42,691
And despite the fact that Charlie doesn't want to go,

828
00:50:42,843 --> 00:50:46,531
but like, a good sub. Yeah, please him.

829
00:50:46,683 --> 00:50:50,659
Beau fucks it up right away. First of all, he says,

830
00:50:50,747 --> 00:50:54,941
rather than going out to eat, let's go back to your place. He basically

831
00:50:55,133 --> 00:50:58,773
Netflix and chill. Literally. Literally. Like, he's saying that

832
00:50:58,789 --> 00:51:01,813
he wants another shot, but he just wants to fuck her. Yeah. And then they

833
00:51:01,829 --> 00:51:05,505
get to talking about it and he's basically like,

834
00:51:06,125 --> 00:51:08,989
making a grand declaration of love for her.

835
00:51:09,117 --> 00:51:12,893
And in that he blames his cheating. On his

836
00:51:12,949 --> 00:51:15,105
dad that just.

837
00:51:17,365 --> 00:51:20,045
He thinks his dad is a degenerate. That's the reason that he's not talking.

838
00:51:20,085 --> 00:51:23,805
Yeah, because his dad does this, like, sex club thing, and that

839
00:51:23,845 --> 00:51:26,105
makes him like, this filthy, dirty,

840
00:51:26,525 --> 00:51:30,965
grimy person. He sucks. She ends

841
00:51:31,005 --> 00:51:35,037
things with him. She can't end it when he's saying all of the reasons

842
00:51:35,101 --> 00:51:38,877
why he loves her and, like, all of these things. As soon as he

843
00:51:38,901 --> 00:51:42,013
blames it on Emerson, she's done. Do not say

844
00:51:42,029 --> 00:51:45,261
a bad word about this person who now she knows and really respects.

845
00:51:45,293 --> 00:51:48,669
Yes, absolutely. And realizes what a fuck up Beau is.

846
00:51:48,717 --> 00:51:52,271
Yeah, absolutely. She ends it with him once and for all and

847
00:51:52,303 --> 00:51:56,207
drops him off at his mom's house. Oh, my God,

848
00:51:56,231 --> 00:51:59,839
I hate this guy. She goes over to Emerson's to proclaim her feelings

849
00:51:59,887 --> 00:52:03,487
for him. And Emerson gives in. They both

850
00:52:03,551 --> 00:52:07,039
completely lose it. He has her get on her knees and

851
00:52:07,087 --> 00:52:10,967
makes her ask if she can suck his cock. And she does.

852
00:52:11,151 --> 00:52:14,647
And then he moves her to her desk where

853
00:52:14,671 --> 00:52:18,039
he goes down on her until she comes. And then he fucks her

854
00:52:18,167 --> 00:52:22,007
until they both come. It's so good. And that's

855
00:52:22,031 --> 00:52:25,351
something I would have done, too. Like, I'm gonna drop your son off at his

856
00:52:25,383 --> 00:52:28,847
mom's, and then I'm gonna go

857
00:52:28,871 --> 00:52:32,623
get that dick. Oh, my God.

858
00:52:32,639 --> 00:52:35,631
I'm gonna make you my stepson. Emerson, after this,

859
00:52:35,663 --> 00:52:38,847
brings her upstairs to his room where they make slow,

860
00:52:38,951 --> 00:52:42,255
deliberate love. So, yes.

861
00:52:42,415 --> 00:52:46,235
Yeah. And that scene, the whole thing is from 167 to 172.

862
00:52:46,835 --> 00:52:50,179
And I also love in this book just the responsible nature

863
00:52:50,227 --> 00:52:53,707
of it. Because in a lot of these books, they'll be, like, in a frenzy.

864
00:52:53,731 --> 00:52:56,075
And then they'll be like, are you clean? And they'll be like, yeah, I'm clean.

865
00:52:56,115 --> 00:52:59,499
And then they just, like, start going at it, and, like, they use a condom.

866
00:52:59,587 --> 00:53:02,875
Yes. Again, responsible adults. And we know that taking

867
00:53:02,915 --> 00:53:05,695
somebody at. Their word is not stupid.

868
00:53:07,995 --> 00:53:11,971
Exactly. Like, I just. I don't know. I just love the

869
00:53:12,003 --> 00:53:15,625
responsibility. You did actually say that I'm very responsible.

870
00:53:15,745 --> 00:53:17,925
Yeah. Now I'm realizing maybe I am.

871
00:53:19,265 --> 00:53:22,057
This is the part where I said emerson is so sexy and I would be

872
00:53:22,081 --> 00:53:25,433
such a good girl for him in this moment. You could have

873
00:53:25,449 --> 00:53:28,721
played that part. Oh, my God, 100%. Like, the next

874
00:53:28,753 --> 00:53:31,785
day when he calls. You would have gladly gotten on my knees,

875
00:53:31,825 --> 00:53:35,605
and I would have begged, please take your dick out.

876
00:53:36,665 --> 00:53:40,249
The next day, they really get to start to lean

877
00:53:40,297 --> 00:53:43,295
into their sex dynamic, which is so fun.

878
00:53:43,715 --> 00:53:47,083
And when Charlie gets to work, Emerson has her stripped down to

879
00:53:47,099 --> 00:53:50,491
her bra and panties while she works. And he

880
00:53:50,523 --> 00:53:53,603
finally has her come sit on his lap while she reads

881
00:53:53,659 --> 00:53:57,411
an email out loud. The email is literally his tax

882
00:53:57,483 --> 00:54:01,571
returns. So he's playing with her.

883
00:54:01,723 --> 00:54:05,579
He's fingering her. It. When she stops, he stops

884
00:54:05,707 --> 00:54:09,403
fingering her. So she is, like, getting too fluffy again.

885
00:54:09,579 --> 00:54:12,055
I. This is not for me.

886
00:54:13,315 --> 00:54:17,091
She's, like, getting flustered trying to read the most

887
00:54:17,243 --> 00:54:21,067
dull content you could possibly imagine. And she's

888
00:54:21,091 --> 00:54:25,259
like. He's like, she's getting up there. And he's like, don't stop.

889
00:54:25,427 --> 00:54:29,371
Oh, my God. Continue reading. All the way through her

890
00:54:29,403 --> 00:54:32,563
orgasm. So while she's orgasming, she's still reading,

891
00:54:32,699 --> 00:54:35,801
turns to him, then he gets up,

892
00:54:35,883 --> 00:54:39,141
bends her over his desk, and he fucks her. And he degrades from

893
00:54:39,173 --> 00:54:42,573
Here in the best way possible. He's saying

894
00:54:42,629 --> 00:54:46,653
things like, look at what you do to me. You make me so crazy.

895
00:54:46,789 --> 00:54:50,637
You're so fucking like. It's the best kind of. Even for me. I'm okay

896
00:54:50,661 --> 00:54:53,845
with that. Yes. It's. He's. Oh,

897
00:54:53,885 --> 00:54:57,405
my God. They both come. It's so great. What are those? Pages 179

898
00:54:57,445 --> 00:55:01,421
to 182. It's Sophie's 15th birthday, and Charlie

899
00:55:01,453 --> 00:55:05,117
is throwing her a party at the skating rink. And Emerson surprises her

900
00:55:05,181 --> 00:55:09,183
by showing up. He gifts Sophie VIP

901
00:55:09,239 --> 00:55:13,095
tickets to an anime festival festival that Charlie

902
00:55:13,135 --> 00:55:15,995
had told him about on her first day.

903
00:55:16,375 --> 00:55:19,239
I know. I can't. I know. It's.

904
00:55:19,287 --> 00:55:22,479
It just shows, like, already. He was so. It was not.

905
00:55:22,647 --> 00:55:26,755
It was so much more for him. Yes. Come on. This guy knows her for.

906
00:55:27,255 --> 00:55:30,423
And she even asks. He just knows. And you've been asked,

907
00:55:30,519 --> 00:55:34,265
but she's not. Even gifting it to her. He's gifting to her

908
00:55:34,305 --> 00:55:38,185
sister. I know. He's so good. He is.

909
00:55:38,305 --> 00:55:41,561
Men written by women, Ladies. Oh, this is a man

910
00:55:41,593 --> 00:55:45,217
written by a woman. Absolutely 100%. He's on

911
00:55:45,241 --> 00:55:48,593
his best behavior. He's calling her Charlie, not Charlotte. He's the only one who calls

912
00:55:48,609 --> 00:55:52,305
her Charlotte. He calls her Charlie here. He's so respectful. Her family

913
00:55:52,345 --> 00:55:55,473
loves him, and she is. This is where some

914
00:55:55,489 --> 00:55:59,073
of the doom and gloom comes in, because she's like, this can't go anywhere.

915
00:55:59,249 --> 00:56:02,355
We can't be together. It's just going to end in heartbreak.

916
00:56:02,435 --> 00:56:06,455
And, yeah, there's a lot of that happening at this point from both sides.

917
00:56:06,795 --> 00:56:10,411
After the party, they all go back to Charlie and Sophie's mom's house for a

918
00:56:10,443 --> 00:56:14,195
movie night. They watch the whole movie, and then Emerson

919
00:56:14,275 --> 00:56:18,179
asks to see Charlie's room, and he

920
00:56:18,227 --> 00:56:21,955
is insisting on, like, going through

921
00:56:21,995 --> 00:56:24,419
her things in her room. He doesn't want to just go to her room and

922
00:56:24,427 --> 00:56:28,543
go to her bed. He wants to go through her photos and see her life.

923
00:56:28,679 --> 00:56:32,343
And this is where we learn that Charlie's sister Sophie is transgender.

924
00:56:32,519 --> 00:56:36,223
And while Charlie is super worried about how he'll react because

925
00:56:36,319 --> 00:56:39,471
that was the reason that their dad left them,

926
00:56:39,663 --> 00:56:43,151
and the only thing that he's bothered by is how their

927
00:56:43,183 --> 00:56:46,823
dad could do that to them. Yes. He's such a good partner.

928
00:56:46,879 --> 00:56:50,063
He's such a good dad. He's the perfect man.

929
00:56:50,159 --> 00:56:53,555
Yeah, he's so great. They start to fool around,

930
00:56:54,235 --> 00:56:58,539
and he makes Charlie tell him what she wants,

931
00:56:58,707 --> 00:57:02,187
and he makes her try to say it multiple times. Yeah. So he's

932
00:57:02,211 --> 00:57:06,295
like, she's on her back. He's kind of straddling her. And she's like,

933
00:57:06,635 --> 00:57:10,043
I want you. I want you to, like, touch yourself. And he's like,

934
00:57:10,059 --> 00:57:13,175
you can do better. And she's like, I want you to,

935
00:57:13,555 --> 00:57:16,695
like. I don't remember what she said. Stroke your cocker.

936
00:57:17,355 --> 00:57:20,867
Something like that. And he's like, you can do better. And she's like, we want

937
00:57:20,891 --> 00:57:24,131
you to fist yourself until you come on my chest.

938
00:57:24,243 --> 00:57:28,695
Yep. And he's like, happy to oblige, ma'am. And yes,

939
00:57:29,035 --> 00:57:32,387
while she's fingering herself to orgasm as well.

940
00:57:32,491 --> 00:57:35,667
So. And again, like, aftercare, he cleans her up and

941
00:57:35,691 --> 00:57:39,695
he stays overnight. They cuddle. So what page is that from?

942
00:57:40,195 --> 00:57:43,747
That is from page 197

943
00:57:43,811 --> 00:57:47,165
to 201. Okay. Emerson's Club

944
00:57:47,205 --> 00:57:50,757
is having their first auction. He pulls Charlie into a

945
00:57:50,781 --> 00:57:53,717
room at the club where he tells her that she will be one of the

946
00:57:53,741 --> 00:57:57,625
women being auctioned that night. And she says,

947
00:57:57,965 --> 00:58:02,077
it's going to be crickets. Like, she does not believe that anybody

948
00:58:02,101 --> 00:58:05,565
is going to bid on her. While in the room

949
00:58:05,645 --> 00:58:09,421
where he's telling her this, Charlie reveals that her test results came

950
00:58:09,453 --> 00:58:13,565
back clean. And they have a quickie in the room before heading

951
00:58:13,605 --> 00:58:15,915
out to get ready for the auction.

952
00:58:17,055 --> 00:58:20,831
Do we want to share pages that? It's 208 to 209. Very short.

953
00:58:20,903 --> 00:58:24,231
But, yeah, I think it's cute. It's cute. Showing that he just

954
00:58:24,263 --> 00:58:28,095
can't help himself. He really can't. He is. He.

955
00:58:28,255 --> 00:58:31,623
There is no gameplay in that at all. He literally is like,

956
00:58:31,679 --> 00:58:34,479
you're what? Okay, A bend over. We're doing it.

957
00:58:34,527 --> 00:58:38,167
There's no preamble. Charlie goes out on the stage.

958
00:58:38,271 --> 00:58:41,681
She's in her underwear. She has a bite mark on her ass from Emerson.

959
00:58:41,753 --> 00:58:45,841
Good for her. And it's not crickets. There is

960
00:58:45,913 --> 00:58:49,521
aggressive bidding, and Emerson ends up winning her

961
00:58:49,633 --> 00:58:53,241
for $75,000. And what they're winning is an

962
00:58:53,273 --> 00:58:56,817
hour of their time. There's no sexual requirements associated

963
00:58:56,881 --> 00:59:00,405
with that time that's being spent. And he

964
00:59:01,505 --> 00:59:05,833
storms up on stage. Nicole manhandles her.

965
00:59:06,009 --> 00:59:09,033
I. Like I said, I. I'll be manhandled. You do, like,

966
00:59:09,089 --> 00:59:12,769
you just manhandles her right off. Throws her over

967
00:59:12,817 --> 00:59:16,177
his shoulder and storms out. Doesn't care. He's.

968
00:59:16,241 --> 00:59:19,457
This is his club. So people are also, like,

969
00:59:19,521 --> 00:59:22,929
judging him. And he's just as a barbarian.

970
00:59:23,017 --> 00:59:25,365
Yeah. Very Cassian. Yeah.

971
00:59:28,865 --> 00:59:33,001
He takes her to one of the playrooms where they

972
00:59:33,033 --> 00:59:37,011
establish a safe word, which is, again, so responsible.

973
00:59:37,163 --> 00:59:40,739
He ties her to the bed and he blindfolds her.

974
00:59:40,867 --> 00:59:44,219
And we think like, oh, Yay. He, like,

975
00:59:44,267 --> 00:59:47,675
won, like, yay. And he's not.

976
00:59:47,715 --> 00:59:51,419
He's actually punishing her for her negative thoughts and her negative feelings

977
00:59:51,467 --> 00:59:54,803
about herself. He uses clamp

978
00:59:54,939 --> 00:59:58,739
and candle wax. Candle wax. To try

979
00:59:58,787 --> 01:00:02,443
and coerce her into saying positive things about herself.

980
01:00:02,579 --> 01:00:06,259
And so, like, he'll ask her, like, is she worth it? And she'll say no.

981
01:00:06,307 --> 01:00:09,547
And then she'll get the wax. And then he'll say, are the other women more

982
01:00:09,571 --> 01:00:14,355
beautiful? And she'll say yes. And then she'll get the wax. And she eventually

983
01:00:14,515 --> 01:00:17,827
dissolves into full blown tears,

984
01:00:17,971 --> 01:00:21,915
begs Emerson to fuck her, and he

985
01:00:21,955 --> 01:00:25,195
does. I do love this, though, because it really shows their

986
01:00:25,235 --> 01:00:28,935
relationship and how safe she feels with him because she could have lied.

987
01:00:29,075 --> 01:00:31,935
She could have said when he says, are you beautiful? She could have just said

988
01:00:31,975 --> 01:00:35,895
yes. But that's not how she's feeling. And she feels so safe with

989
01:00:35,935 --> 01:00:39,663
him and trust him. I think she. I like,

990
01:00:39,679 --> 01:00:43,735
I get a feeling that she wants to believe that and

991
01:00:43,775 --> 01:00:47,215
really likes hearing it from him. It builds up her confidence

992
01:00:47,295 --> 01:00:50,807
too. Yeah, So I do. And I love that he's willing to

993
01:00:50,831 --> 01:00:54,087
give that to her because so many times in my life I think back where

994
01:00:54,111 --> 01:00:57,935
it's like, I wish somebody would just validate me right now. I realize that I'm

995
01:00:57,975 --> 01:01:01,421
not this, like, swamp creature that I feel like I am right now,

996
01:01:01,533 --> 01:01:04,733
but I want somebody else to say, no, you're not a swamp creature.

997
01:01:04,829 --> 01:01:08,293
Yes, I do that with you, actually, all the time. Or I'll come in and

998
01:01:08,309 --> 01:01:11,573
I'll be like, am I like the worst person? And you'll be like, no,

999
01:01:11,629 --> 01:01:14,453
you're not. You're not the worst person. You overthink everything, though,

1000
01:01:14,549 --> 01:01:17,505
more than I do. Yeah, I am an overthinker.

1001
01:01:18,645 --> 01:01:22,053
But they, I think in the scene they

1002
01:01:22,189 --> 01:01:25,725
really fully fall in love. Yes, definitely.

1003
01:01:26,105 --> 01:01:29,361
He knew what he was doing when he did this. He talks about it

1004
01:01:29,393 --> 01:01:33,257
later, about how he wanted to make her face her

1005
01:01:33,281 --> 01:01:37,081
negative feelings and build her up. Yeah. And that scene was from 216

1006
01:01:37,153 --> 01:01:40,561
to 223. He takes her back to his place

1007
01:01:40,593 --> 01:01:44,285
for aftercare. They take a shower and Charlie gives him head.

1008
01:01:44,625 --> 01:01:49,017
And they are staying forever

1009
01:01:49,201 --> 01:01:52,841
in the shower. And they both. But they both know that

1010
01:01:52,873 --> 01:01:56,285
it can't be. So it's feeling very bittersweet.

1011
01:01:56,625 --> 01:02:00,361
After a conversation with his business partner, Garrett, Emerson realizes

1012
01:02:00,393 --> 01:02:03,849
that he needs to make a decision with

1013
01:02:03,897 --> 01:02:07,449
Charlie. And he decides that he's gonna have a conversation with her

1014
01:02:07,497 --> 01:02:11,433
about their future. And he's surprised by Charlie

1015
01:02:11,489 --> 01:02:14,737
because he's kind of going into it with, like, well, you know,

1016
01:02:14,761 --> 01:02:18,105
I don't wanna have any more kids. And he's expecting Charlie to really panic.

1017
01:02:18,145 --> 01:02:21,701
And Charlie is like, well, I'm totally. Either way, I'm totally fine.

1018
01:02:21,733 --> 01:02:24,965
Which is such a responsible thing. I could not, like, I don't have kids

1019
01:02:25,005 --> 01:02:28,621
and I could not, at that age have said, I. I would be fine

1020
01:02:28,653 --> 01:02:32,541
with that. She makes. That's a big statement and

1021
01:02:32,653 --> 01:02:35,981
really, really speaks to how much she feels about him. Yeah, absolutely.

1022
01:02:36,173 --> 01:02:40,205
And I. I don't think that she's saying anything here that she doesn't

1023
01:02:40,285 --> 01:02:43,309
feel. No. She's also being very true to herself.

1024
01:02:43,397 --> 01:02:47,107
She's been so honest with him the whole time. Yeah. And she actually puts

1025
01:02:47,131 --> 01:02:50,491
up a counter attack by really

1026
01:02:50,523 --> 01:02:54,091
starting to push the idea of telling Beau

1027
01:02:54,243 --> 01:02:59,107
about them. And all of this gets them all worked up because.

1028
01:02:59,131 --> 01:03:02,635
Of course it does. Of course it does. Emerson has

1029
01:03:02,675 --> 01:03:06,059
Charlie sit on his face until she comes, and then she straddles

1030
01:03:06,107 --> 01:03:09,059
him and rides him until they both come. And again,

1031
01:03:09,147 --> 01:03:12,515
Emerson realizes in that moment, he says,

1032
01:03:12,555 --> 01:03:15,989
if this isn't love, I don't know what is. Yeah. And that is from 240

1033
01:03:16,037 --> 01:03:19,285
to 242. During one of their play scenes,

1034
01:03:19,365 --> 01:03:23,581
Emerson has Charlie take off her panties and put the vibrator in.

1035
01:03:23,733 --> 01:03:27,821
They walk to the deli where Emerson turns the vibrator on

1036
01:03:27,893 --> 01:03:32,349
while Charlie is trying not to come in public and placing their sandwich orders.

1037
01:03:32,517 --> 01:03:36,317
When they return, they find Beau waiting on Emerson's

1038
01:03:36,341 --> 01:03:40,125
front porch. Charlie is forced to sit across from

1039
01:03:40,165 --> 01:03:43,985
him in no panties with a vibrator inside of her.

1040
01:03:44,295 --> 01:03:47,847
And when he finally goes to leave, he accidentally bumps

1041
01:03:47,911 --> 01:03:51,239
the button on the remote, which exposes

1042
01:03:51,287 --> 01:03:55,127
Emerson and Charlie because she. He basically turns it on high.

1043
01:03:55,231 --> 01:03:59,151
Yeah, Wheels. And Emerson has to, like, grab the remote and

1044
01:03:59,183 --> 01:04:02,815
turn it off. I'm just uncomfortable. I'm uncomfortable even

1045
01:04:02,855 --> 01:04:07,195
talking about it again. That seems so uncomfortable to read because you just feel like,

1046
01:04:07,695 --> 01:04:11,539
poor, poor Charlie. And Beau just fucks everything up.

1047
01:04:11,607 --> 01:04:14,895
He always does such. He's such a fuck up. Yeah.

1048
01:04:15,675 --> 01:04:18,947
In the moment, Emerson fucks up because Beau was like,

1049
01:04:18,971 --> 01:04:22,155
what's going on here? And Emerson is like, it's nothing.

1050
01:04:22,275 --> 01:04:24,843
And Charlie is like, fucking nothing.

1051
01:04:24,939 --> 01:04:27,895
Devastated. Devastated. She leaves.

1052
01:04:28,355 --> 01:04:31,771
And now we're eight days later, and Charlie's

1053
01:04:31,803 --> 01:04:35,735
still grieving from her breakup with Emerson. She's been hibernating.

1054
01:04:36,115 --> 01:04:39,557
Sophie comes in to comfort her sister. And we.

1055
01:04:39,661 --> 01:04:44,117
In the original recording of this, we. I read the quote of her conversation

1056
01:04:44,181 --> 01:04:47,941
with her sister, and I cried, and so we opted not to have me

1057
01:04:48,053 --> 01:04:51,485
again. I will say it once. I'll say It a million times.

1058
01:04:51,565 --> 01:04:54,805
I don't do children. I just don't.

1059
01:04:54,885 --> 01:04:58,437
And this child is so wise beyond her years and

1060
01:04:58,461 --> 01:05:01,705
has had to experience such incredible

1061
01:05:02,085 --> 01:05:05,253
discrimination. Yeah. And so for her

1062
01:05:05,349 --> 01:05:08,685
to come to Charlie and say like,

1063
01:05:08,805 --> 01:05:12,501
Charlie. Because Charlie is like, I let him change everything about me.

1064
01:05:12,653 --> 01:05:15,829
I let him take away like everything about what I am.

1065
01:05:15,997 --> 01:05:19,185
And, and you're going to cry again.

1066
01:05:20,525 --> 01:05:24,077
Oh my God. But as a 20 year old, when you're changing,

1067
01:05:24,141 --> 01:05:28,053
when you're growing, it can feel like things are being taken away.

1068
01:05:28,189 --> 01:05:31,645
Like now I've settled down with this guy, I don't go out anymore. He's taken

1069
01:05:31,685 --> 01:05:35,025
that from me. But really you're just growing into.

1070
01:05:35,615 --> 01:05:38,535
Yeah. An older person. You're growing into yourself.

1071
01:05:38,655 --> 01:05:42,551
Yeah, absolutely. And that's really what Sophie, that is what points

1072
01:05:42,583 --> 01:05:45,791
out so well. Thank you so much for doing that for me. I really needed

1073
01:05:45,823 --> 01:05:49,439
that. I, I all I can say is just like, I just recommend

1074
01:05:49,487 --> 01:05:53,423
reading it because it's just. You just recommend this book in general. Yeah, I do.

1075
01:05:53,559 --> 01:05:56,431
I, yeah, look it. You're glad you read it.

1076
01:05:56,583 --> 01:06:00,247
Yes, yes, I did it. She is such a

1077
01:06:00,271 --> 01:06:03,797
good writer. Yeah. Sarah Kate, recommend. She's such

1078
01:06:03,821 --> 01:06:07,109
a good writer. Emerson is heartbroken.

1079
01:06:07,237 --> 01:06:11,037
He knows that he fucked up. He and Beau hash

1080
01:06:11,061 --> 01:06:14,917
it out. That night, Charlie goes into the club on her

1081
01:06:14,981 --> 01:06:18,941
own and runs into Eden, the dominatrix from the blog.

1082
01:06:19,013 --> 01:06:22,629
And like, important note here that Charlie

1083
01:06:22,717 --> 01:06:26,309
knows these people now. These are people that are familiar with her.

1084
01:06:26,437 --> 01:06:29,499
She is familiar with them. She walks in, walks up to the bar and the

1085
01:06:29,507 --> 01:06:33,499
bartender is like, if I could have a recording to record

1086
01:06:33,547 --> 01:06:36,403
the way that you just walked into this club, such a different person from the

1087
01:06:36,419 --> 01:06:39,819
first day that you walked in. Like, these people are all people that have known

1088
01:06:39,867 --> 01:06:43,979
her. And Eden is like, look it, I've never

1089
01:06:44,027 --> 01:06:47,735
seen Emerson pay attention to anybody like you. I guarantee you

1090
01:06:48,155 --> 01:06:51,995
we can fuck with him and get him back. Yeah. And Eden

1091
01:06:52,035 --> 01:06:55,195
is like, where do you. Like, have you ever been with a woman?

1092
01:06:55,275 --> 01:06:58,891
Yeah, like, do you want to play? And Charlie

1093
01:06:58,923 --> 01:07:02,131
is like, yeah. Like, yeah, let's do it. Because Emerson is

1094
01:07:02,163 --> 01:07:05,787
at the club that night. Eden takes Charlie to a room

1095
01:07:05,931 --> 01:07:09,491
where she starts to kind of like tease Charlie. She takes

1096
01:07:09,523 --> 01:07:12,335
her top off, she's like kissing Charlie.

1097
01:07:12,635 --> 01:07:17,147
And Emerson storms into the room to interrupt

1098
01:07:17,211 --> 01:07:21,011
them. He and Charlie battle it out. Charlie is justifiably

1099
01:07:21,043 --> 01:07:24,219
upset about what he said and she's like, it's never enough. It's not going to

1100
01:07:24,227 --> 01:07:27,335
be enough. And Emerson is like, I'm going to show you.

1101
01:07:27,455 --> 01:07:31,343
So he puts her on the Throne. And he kneels in

1102
01:07:31,359 --> 01:07:35,095
front of her, where he then goes down on her and fingers her. And he

1103
01:07:35,135 --> 01:07:38,303
lets her control the situation until she comes.

1104
01:07:38,399 --> 01:07:41,535
So she's telling him what to do, and he's

1105
01:07:41,575 --> 01:07:44,919
listening, which is kind of a reversal of their roles. Yeah.

1106
01:07:45,047 --> 01:07:48,879
And then when they finish, she literally

1107
01:07:48,927 --> 01:07:52,771
gets up, adjusts herself, and says, it's not

1108
01:07:52,803 --> 01:07:56,691
enough. And I just love that for. Because man at

1109
01:07:56,763 --> 01:07:59,899
my feet while I'm on a throne, that might have been enough for

1110
01:07:59,907 --> 01:08:03,747
me. So good for her. It is a very distinct evolution.

1111
01:08:03,851 --> 01:08:06,363
I mean, she stood up to him and she. That's not something that she ever

1112
01:08:06,379 --> 01:08:09,891
did to Beau. And. And she's accepted now what she deserves.

1113
01:08:10,083 --> 01:08:13,619
Yeah. Before, she thought she was insignificant compared to Emerson,

1114
01:08:13,667 --> 01:08:17,563
and now she's like, I don't deserve this. I don't deserve to be somebody's

1115
01:08:17,659 --> 01:08:21,161
secret. Yes. Yeah. Rumors spread of Charlie's

1116
01:08:21,193 --> 01:08:24,937
activities to her father, and he shows up at

1117
01:08:25,041 --> 01:08:29,433
their house and gets physically and emotionally abusive with Charlie

1118
01:08:29,489 --> 01:08:33,249
and her mom. And in the midst of all of this,

1119
01:08:33,417 --> 01:08:36,849
Sophie has gone to hide from her

1120
01:08:36,897 --> 01:08:40,849
dad, and she calls Emerson, who's already with Beau, and they

1121
01:08:40,897 --> 01:08:44,635
show up to break up the argument. And Charlie

1122
01:08:44,675 --> 01:08:48,307
and Sophie, I think, are empowered while

1123
01:08:48,331 --> 01:08:52,139
they're present because they stand out to their dad and

1124
01:08:52,227 --> 01:08:56,523
he leaves. Emerson decides he's going to fight for Charlie

1125
01:08:56,619 --> 01:08:59,987
and tells Beau when they go to leave after

1126
01:09:00,051 --> 01:09:02,723
it all happens, that he's not going to stop seeing her,

1127
01:09:02,779 --> 01:09:06,375
which Beau just kind of begrudgingly accepts.

1128
01:09:06,955 --> 01:09:10,531
That night, Charlie goes over to Emerson's house where they make

1129
01:09:10,563 --> 01:09:14,591
up wordlessly and they just have, like, carnal sex on his stairs.

1130
01:09:14,703 --> 01:09:18,487
What page is that from? That is 302 to

1131
01:09:18,511 --> 01:09:21,855
304. These are short scenes, but they're so

1132
01:09:21,895 --> 01:09:25,807
sexy. They are. Yeah. The epilogue

1133
01:09:25,871 --> 01:09:29,663
is just a love fest. Charlie's moving into Emerson's place.

1134
01:09:29,799 --> 01:09:33,695
She's picked back up on her secretary duties, including another

1135
01:09:33,775 --> 01:09:36,527
scene where she sucks his dick during a meeting and then he goes down on

1136
01:09:36,551 --> 01:09:39,903
her. Charlie resumes her family dinners on Thursday,

1137
01:09:39,999 --> 01:09:43,579
where now. Which now include Emerson and beauty. And we

1138
01:09:43,627 --> 01:09:47,147
end on her and Emerson in this, like, really playful moment.

1139
01:09:47,331 --> 01:09:51,067
I loved it. Of course you did. You love the ones that end.

1140
01:09:51,251 --> 01:09:54,683
Yeah, just nicely. I like an open ending.

1141
01:09:54,859 --> 01:09:56,695
No, I like happily ever after.

1142
01:09:57,595 --> 01:10:00,255
So, for example, kingdom of Ash.

1143
01:10:01,235 --> 01:10:03,667
I'm going to talk about it till the day I die. Of course you will

1144
01:10:03,811 --> 01:10:07,755
like that book. It, like, ended nicely. It didn't

1145
01:10:07,795 --> 01:10:11,091
end nicely. We don't know what happens to any of those people after

1146
01:10:11,123 --> 01:10:14,563
that. Right. And that is what I like, we didn't get like Harry Potter did

1147
01:10:14,579 --> 01:10:18,575
this, where you get that flash forward like 10 years into the future.

1148
01:10:18,875 --> 01:10:22,403
And we just know that everything worked out so nicely. Everybody's still together,

1149
01:10:22,459 --> 01:10:26,211
they're still married. And I don't think that's realistic. So I love when it ends

1150
01:10:26,243 --> 01:10:29,735
on a little bit of a. Yeah. And that terrorizes me.

1151
01:10:30,915 --> 01:10:33,971
I fucking hate it. Oh, God.

1152
01:10:34,043 --> 01:10:37,731
I need to know that these people that I have fallen so in love with

1153
01:10:37,803 --> 01:10:41,351
are so, so happy and content in their lives.

1154
01:10:41,543 --> 01:10:44,847
So, anyways, well,

1155
01:10:44,951 --> 01:10:48,639
we of course want to thank Pagle. Let me tell you something.

1156
01:10:48,727 --> 01:10:52,431
As of the day that we're recording this episode,

1157
01:10:52,543 --> 01:10:56,583
Pagle has gone full tilt on our social media.

1158
01:10:56,679 --> 01:11:00,247
It's absolutely incredible. We are so, so, so grateful.

1159
01:11:00,311 --> 01:11:03,071
It's amazing. We would be nowhere. Oh, God,

1160
01:11:03,143 --> 01:11:07,143
no. Our website would be a blank page with our picture on

1161
01:11:07,159 --> 01:11:10,435
it and like our names. Yeah. And links that you can't click

1162
01:11:11,135 --> 01:11:14,311
that go to nowhere. Yeah, pretty much. Yeah.

1163
01:11:14,383 --> 01:11:18,143
It's incredible. We're so, so grateful for her. Sarah Kate

1164
01:11:18,199 --> 01:11:21,455
writes forbidden romance with lots of angst, a little age gap and heaps

1165
01:11:21,495 --> 01:11:24,639
of steam. Living in Arizona with her husband and kids,

1166
01:11:24,687 --> 01:11:28,159
Sarah spends most of her time reading, writing, or baking.

1167
01:11:28,327 --> 01:11:31,975
And Sarah and I could be best friends. So. And I

1168
01:11:32,015 --> 01:11:35,697
love her website. So if you. Her website is me. It's black

1169
01:11:35,721 --> 01:11:39,697
and green and gold, which is my favorite colors. I am a Slytherin,

1170
01:11:39,801 --> 01:11:43,353
so I love her website. It has a little bit

1171
01:11:43,369 --> 01:11:46,505
of a Great Gatsby vibe. Sure. Yeah. And I just.

1172
01:11:46,545 --> 01:11:50,205
I love it. Other books by Sarah Kate include

1173
01:11:50,585 --> 01:11:54,241
the rest of the Salacious Players Club's books, Praise Eyes on Me, Give Me

1174
01:11:54,273 --> 01:11:57,209
More and Mercy An Age Gap Romance,

1175
01:11:57,377 --> 01:12:00,825
Duology, Beautiful Monster, Beautiful Sinner, Wild Boys

1176
01:12:00,865 --> 01:12:04,093
Duology, Gravity Freefall, Black Heart Duology,

1177
01:12:04,229 --> 01:12:07,869
4 and 5, Cocky Hero Club, the Handsome Devil,

1178
01:12:07,997 --> 01:12:11,709
A Bully Romance, Burn for Me and the Wicked Heart series.

1179
01:12:11,797 --> 01:12:15,309
Delicate, Dangerous and Defiant. And I

1180
01:12:15,357 --> 01:12:18,677
think that I'm going to read other books of hers. Ratings. All right.

1181
01:12:18,781 --> 01:12:22,445
Spice level. Spice level. I'm going to give this a three.

1182
01:12:22,565 --> 01:12:26,413
Yeah. I also gave it a three. It is spicy. But again, like you said,

1183
01:12:26,509 --> 01:12:30,505
because I've really been thinking at it from your lens. I like that. Of how

1184
01:12:31,005 --> 01:12:34,197
advanced these things are. And it's

1185
01:12:34,221 --> 01:12:37,853
not a super advanced. They tie. Ties her up.

1186
01:12:37,869 --> 01:12:41,389
There's a little candle play. So it's a little more. But. Which should have been

1187
01:12:41,397 --> 01:12:44,709
a trigger. P.S. but wasn't. Yeah. Right. Yeah.

1188
01:12:44,837 --> 01:12:47,949
But yeah, I think that this book got a little bit

1189
01:12:47,957 --> 01:12:51,149
of a higher score because it is so sexy throughout Even when they're not having

1190
01:12:51,197 --> 01:12:54,613
sex. Yes. So. Yes. Spice frequency.

1191
01:12:54,789 --> 01:12:57,613
I'm gonna give this one a two.

1192
01:12:57,789 --> 01:13:00,637
Interesting. I gave you four because there are. They're short,

1193
01:13:00,821 --> 01:13:04,509
but this is like a 300 page book. Not even. Yeah, 300 page book.

1194
01:13:04,637 --> 01:13:07,741
And there are like 10 sex scenes. It's not fair. Every time I give

1195
01:13:07,773 --> 01:13:11,309
my frequency, you have

1196
01:13:11,357 --> 01:13:14,085
all of the details of it and I don't have them in front of me.

1197
01:13:14,125 --> 01:13:17,757
Yeah. I. Maybe I gave it a two because I wanted more. Yeah.

1198
01:13:17,821 --> 01:13:21,613
I wanted it. I wanted them to have more actual

1199
01:13:21,749 --> 01:13:24,469
fuckery. And there isn't a lot of that happening.

1200
01:13:24,557 --> 01:13:27,815
So maybe I'm just a little bitter about it. Right.

1201
01:13:28,395 --> 01:13:31,683
Pros. I want to give it a five. I gave it a three and a

1202
01:13:31,699 --> 01:13:35,419
half. Really? Yes. Oh, okay. Go ahead.

1203
01:13:35,467 --> 01:13:39,495
Yes. I. Beau Rudenet. I feel like he is so.

1204
01:13:40,075 --> 01:13:43,483
He. I don't love when they just use plot devices in the books.

1205
01:13:43,539 --> 01:13:46,307
Sure. A way to, like move the plot forward. And I feel like that's what

1206
01:13:46,331 --> 01:13:49,843
he was. So that kind of brought it down for me. Sure. That's why I

1207
01:13:49,859 --> 01:13:53,111
couldn't quite give it a four. I don't think I've given any fives for prose.

1208
01:13:53,303 --> 01:13:57,063
Maybe haunting Adeline. Because I loved that. Yeah. But.

1209
01:13:57,239 --> 01:14:01,115
Yeah, there were just some things that I didn't love that she

1210
01:14:01,735 --> 01:14:05,435
did. I think that in the genre,

1211
01:14:06,095 --> 01:14:10,111
well executed writing is sometimes

1212
01:14:10,223 --> 01:14:13,863
challenging to come by. And this is a very well

1213
01:14:13,919 --> 01:14:17,603
written book. And I think that I have

1214
01:14:17,619 --> 01:14:20,995
to. I would. If I. I talk at one point in our notes

1215
01:14:21,035 --> 01:14:24,587
here in our recap about the artistry of the way that she

1216
01:14:24,611 --> 01:14:27,883
writes some of these scenes. And I stand like. I stand by

1217
01:14:27,899 --> 01:14:31,427
that. I just think that she does such a good job

1218
01:14:31,531 --> 01:14:34,387
of it. You're right. It is a short book. Yeah.

1219
01:14:34,491 --> 01:14:38,651
She. The context that she gives for these scenes

1220
01:14:38,763 --> 01:14:42,531
just makes them next level. And you are very invested

1221
01:14:42,563 --> 01:14:45,371
in the characters. I was pretty mad when I rated this.

1222
01:14:45,523 --> 01:14:48,255
Yeah. I was pretty. You could send.

1223
01:14:49,075 --> 01:14:52,427
He's an asshole. Yeah. This is my phantasmal.

1224
01:14:52,491 --> 01:14:56,055
Okay, that's fine. You got it. All right. Storyline.

1225
01:14:56,475 --> 01:15:00,211
Storyline. I'm gonna give it probably a 4.

1226
01:15:00,323 --> 01:15:03,095
I also gave it a 4. I do think the storyline was.

1227
01:15:03,555 --> 01:15:08,067
Yeah, same. I think honestly, if this.

1228
01:15:08,131 --> 01:15:11,621
This is one of those books where if it was like a book with spice,

1229
01:15:11,763 --> 01:15:14,865
I still probably would have read it. Overall. Overall, I'm going to

1230
01:15:15,365 --> 01:15:18,449
give it a four. I gave it a three. It just is not.

1231
01:15:18,497 --> 01:15:22,185
This type of relationship doesn't. Yeah. Get me hot and bothered.

1232
01:15:22,265 --> 01:15:25,393
Yeah. And I loved this book. I actually want to raise mine

1233
01:15:25,409 --> 01:15:28,633
to four and a half. Yeah. For anybody that's tracking.

1234
01:15:28,809 --> 01:15:32,793
But I just. I cried multiple times when

1235
01:15:32,809 --> 01:15:36,033
I was listening to the original recap, which the recording was awful.

1236
01:15:36,169 --> 01:15:39,877
There were multiple parts where I, like, got emotional. Yeah. Because I just.

1237
01:15:40,061 --> 01:15:43,221
I just love so much. I love them together and I just love the book

1238
01:15:43,253 --> 01:15:46,533
so much. So. All right. Where can you find this? It's a

1239
01:15:46,549 --> 01:15:49,985
very accessible book. It's on Kindle Unlimited. You can get it on,

1240
01:15:50,565 --> 01:15:54,109
like, Target, Barnes and Noble. Find us on social

1241
01:15:54,157 --> 01:15:57,557
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1242
01:15:57,717 --> 01:16:00,785
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1243
01:16:01,125 --> 01:16:05,355
And you can find us online atbooks let's.podcast.com

1244
01:16:05,485 --> 01:16:08,807
which links to all of our social media. And we'll

1245
01:16:08,871 --> 01:16:13,151
have updates of the next books that we're reading as well.

1246
01:16:13,343 --> 01:16:16,359
I'm Amanda. I'm Nicole. And we're book Sluts.

1247
01:16:16,407 --> 01:16:17,695
We'll see you next time. See you next week.